THE GATEKEEPER
Anxiety is not a malfunction. It is a status report.
The Withdrawal of Knowing Anxiety is a direct result of the withdrawal of Da’at (Knowing) from life. When a person ceases to live from a living recognition that “There is nothing else but Him.” He falls into a consciousness of separation. I am alone. I need to hold it together. I need to control. I need to know what will happen.
In this moment a internal rift is created. Between the Soul which knows there is one absolute Management. And the human mind which tries to manage a world that is not its own.
The Rift This rift is anxiety. Fear and sadness stem from the fact that the human gives reality to forces separate from the Creator. The moment the bad news, the future, the body, or other people are perceived as having independent power. The psyche enters distress. Because it feels it is standing against a world it has no chance of defeating.
All fears come from a lack of security in the Source. This is an existential diagnosis.
The Warning Light Anxiety is a sign that a person is living below his level of Knowing. That faith remained a concept. And did not become a living knowledge that actually manages life.
Suffering is a means of management. It is kindness. Reality presses exactly where the person still holds himself as the center. Therefore the anxiety did not come to destroy you. It came to dismantle the illusion that you are alone. That you are responsible for the result. That you are the Source.
The Truth It tells the truth to your face. You are trying to be God. And you are not.
As long as you continue to seek security in money, in people, in the body, in the future, or in control. The anxiety will remain. Because it is the Gatekeeper of the Soul.
The Release The moment you return to true Knowing. The anxiety loses its grip. It has no more role.
The quiet does not come because the world calmed down. It comes because the human stopped arguing with the Management.
This is the unpleasant truth. Anxiety is not a problem you need to get rid of. It is an unambiguous call for spiritual maturity.
Whoever is willing to hear it to the end wakes up. Whoever is not. Will continue to run between solutions. But the fear will just change shape and remain.
Translated from the Hebrew wisdom of Ruth Kedem.